Speaking uncomfortable truths

Sometimes I say things to people that I feel I need to, but by doing so I end up stirring up a hornets nest. I think they may call that diarrhea of the mouth. But I feel I need to save these people, I need them to see my point of view and see that my way is the right way! : )

I do take risks and say uncomfortable things, but now that I'm thinking about it more, maybe I don't always really need to say everything that I'm feeling and thinking. Obviously, my truth is not the only truth, it's just one perception. Although, it's a pretty insightful and intelligent perception. : )

Maybe I should just look inward and focus on myself?? Hmmmm....sounds like a good idea. ; o I think for now, I will work on a balance of doing both things. Speaking up for myself when I need to. Speaking the truth; my truth. But for the rest of the time. Which is about 99% of the time, I will focus so much on myself, that I will get so sick of myself that I won't know what to do. I guess I'll have to learn a new hobby or something. Maybe I'll become a counselor or a nun; they sound like good hobbies. 

So here I go.....out into the world. So watch out! Because I might just trip over you while I'm thinking about my awesome self. Peace Out! Darkstar Woman.

Literally!

I am literally freaking out right now. The page will turn and tomorrow with come, and I don't know what's going to happen. Well I guess the same is true for everyone, but for me there could be an answer I'm just not ready for.

A moment in time I can never take back. So right now, in this moment I should be enjoying it, because I don't know the answer yet. But of course my thoughts have already arrived in tomorrow and all it's complexities. Why do we do this to ourselves? Is it just human nature to worry, to feel like it gives us some sense of control. Probably. But I guess I will just keep sitting here and waiting, waiting for tomorrow. Waiting for the answer, not really knowing if it will ever come. Not knowing what I will be thinking or feeling at the same time tomorrow as I do now. LIFE! That's all it is, no bullshit, no games, just pure truth. But I'm not ready for that truth. I don't want to grow up. Not yet anyway. ; )  Well for at least not this part. Well tally-ho good neighbours!